Welcome to our message boards; I've very glad you found us.
I'm sorry to hear of how difficult this has all been for you, and you're certainly not alone in feeling the way you do, believe me. The emotional and self-esteem impact of dealing with HPV can be very hard, and there aren't always enough resources to help with that. Keep in mind that HPV is very common, with researchers estimating that 75-80% of sexually active Americans (that's not a typo) contract the virus at some point. An HPV diagnosis isn't a reflection on you, your character, or your choices. It simply means that like so many others, you've been exposed to a common virus.
There are a number of approaches to treat genital warts, none of which is regarded universally as the best for all cases. Cryotherapy, where a health care professional used liquid nitrogen to "freeze" tissue containing the warts, is very common and can take several rounds to work. Review treatment options at http://www.ashastd.org/hpv/hpv_learn_warts.cfm#7
. Sometimes "at home" prescription creams are used, either alone or along with the treatment done in the clinic, and some cases require out-patient surgical techniques to remove the warts (scalpel excision, for example). Ask your health care provider if more cryo is indicated or if there are other options suitable for you they can discuss.
Be careful of any product available online that you can obtain without a prescription that claims to treat genital warts. To our knowledge, such items are not part of most standard treatment guidelines (such as CDC's) and we strongly urge you to consult with a doctor, nurse, or pharmacist first.
Review the discussion we had in an earlier thread at http://www.ashastd.org/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=65
. Also check the one at http://www.ashastd.org/phpbb/viewtopic.php?t=21
, as well, where we address a question about future partners and does the virus always remain in a state where it can be given to a new partner (no way to prove it one way or the other, but many experts think the likelihood of transmission may decline over time).
I hope this helps. Post again sometime and let us know how things are with you.
All the best,