I just went to the doctor, and found out that I have high risk hpv with lsil. I haven't had my colposcopy, it's scheduled for this friday. I feel so angry; I got the call from the doctor, and went there immediately to find out what was wrong with me. I asked my boyfriend to come along, and he did. After we left the doctor's office, I asked him if any of the people he ever slept with had anything, and he said to me Sarah said she had something, but it went away. That means he knew! After two years together, he knew and he didn't tell me! I feel so sad, so angry, things were going so well for me. Now I'm depressed, I don't want to go to school anymore, all I feel like doing is sleeping all day.
I take vitamins, but I'm just so scared. I'm just so scared. I wish I never slept with him, I wish I never did. I have a child too, and that scares me so much more that what if I die, what will happen to him? It seems so unfair too, I've been a good human being, I've tried to help people, take care of people, but it just seems like life doesn't go that way for me. It is also so easy for women to develop cancer versus men; it's just not fair.