Well it's been a little over 6mos since me first learning I have HPV. Was never given a clear answer to weather I have low and/or high risk. My initial pap was abnormal and I also displayed small lesions near my clitoris. My ex-boyfriend also had warts about 2 weeks after we had unprotected sex. I hate going to the doctor because they seem so nonchalant about HPV. Knowing that I have this and passed it to someone who I really loved has had a devastating emotional effect on me. Not one day has passed where I haven't thought about me having something there's no cure for. I sometimes cry at night for how this affects my future in regards to relationships.
Although, it's been a while since being sexually active, I'm going have another full STD screening. Before contracting this, I'd always be nervous. Today, I don't feel anything. I'm emotionally numb, but I'm hoping nothing else shows up.
Pray for me.
First, you don't know that you passed it on to him. He could have already had it and it just took this long for the visible symptoms to occur. I was diagnosed earlier this year with low risk HPV (although I have never had any warts) and then recently I was diagnosed with high risk HPV. Do I blame the guy that I'm with? No, there is no test and no way for him or I to really know who I got this from.
You need to stop blaming yourself for something you had no clue you had. Your ex is an adult and made as equal a decision to be sexually involved with you as you did to be with him. Unless you plan to be celebate for the rest of your life, there is always going to be some risk. Now that you know about HPV, you can have an honest conversation with future partners. Seriously, my partner took two seconds before he decided that since we both probably shared this virus, that there wasn't any point in really stressing about it. I go for a colpo next month.
Just remember that you are a lovely, vibrant person who just happened to contract a very prevalent virus. You and I will both survive HPV!