You said your partner had first been diagnosed 10 years ago and he still was able to pass it to you.
---True, but we began having sex in 2006. I don't know if that makes it better or worse in terms of time frame. :/
I was hoping that I wouldn't always be contagious.
--- I'll tell ya, none of the girls that interacted with my current partner tested positive for HPV, neither low- or high-risk. In fact, they were all in shock when he contacted him to tell them he had it (he was trying to figure out where he got it, not that it mattered). To me that says that conditions have to be right for it to show up once you've been exposed. We were together sexually for four years before I manifested symptoms, and I firmly believe it's because we had a crazy few months leading up to it, including a trip overseas where I was sick as a dog. My immune system was shot, and just couldn't fight it off anymore. So I don't think it's safe to assume you'll always be contagious. As my derm told me, "It's frustrating, and it sucks, but the humans always win."
I had one abnormal pap (May 08), 2 weeks later my now ex bf said he had gw. I still don't know if he gave it to me or I gave it to him.
---Aggravating, isn't it? We spent tons of time trying to piece together where he got it from, but in the end we realized it doesn't matter. He can't go back and undo anything, and we both have it now, so forward is really the only option. Dwelling on it made us both angry, frustrated, and upset, which doesn't help with the healing.
8 months later my pap was back to normal and have been ever since. I never had any visible warts. Needless to say, it's been 2 years and I'm still confused.
---I think the research shows that if you've been good for 2 years, you should be fine. That means your body successfully fought it off. Yay, you!
I stopped dating and stopped having sex. I'm having real issues with moving past the experience.
---Honestly, without a counselor, I would be a mess. I was crazy suicidal for awhile there, and just could not stop thinking about it. I didn't feel human, or female, and I just wanted to pretend I was a eunuch and retire to a nunnery in France. I still have times when I get super frustrated and cry, but I don't dwell on it like I did for awhile. It's been hard to come to grips with the fact that I didn't do anything to deserve this; it just dropped in my lap. It's not permanent, it doesn't change who I am as a person unless I allow it to. I am not my disease. Sure, the symptoms suck, and the treatment *really* sucks, but it's all temporary. I will heal, as I've done in the past, and life goes on. These are the things I keep telling myself.
Anyway, I hope your treatments help you eradicate the gw once and for all.
---SO DO I!!!!