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I am so glad that I found this forum. I have had such anxiety and stress about HPV and didn't know where to turn.
My story: I had my first abnormal pap in 2006. Had a colp, showed nothing, so we let it go and it cleared itself. In spring 2010, I had another abnormal pap, thought nothing of it. Had the colp, and my doctor saw one spot. Biopsy showed high grade dysplasia so I underwent LEEP in July 2010. I also consulted with a naturopath about diet changes and vitamin changes. I had a really awful time of just everything in November 2009 when I was basically sick for the entire month. The nautropath thinks that, if I had kicked HPV before, my immune system could have broken down that November, which is why it went high grade.
At my follow up appointment, my doctor said my cervix was healing "beautifully" and should be back to "normal" within a year. The spot he removed was very small, he said, and I should have full regrowth (though I don't know what to believe from him, as you'll see below).
I went back for my first colp post-LEEP in late November and my doc found not spots. However, the pap came back abnormal and I again have low grade dysplasia.
I am devastated. I thought I was doing everything I could possibly do to clear this, and apparently I haven't. I am a very healthy person and eat a diet high in fruits, vegetables and whole grains. I increased my foods with folate, beta carrotene and selenium, but apparently I didn't do this enough. That or I'm not going to be able to beat this thing, which I'm worried about.
I'm going back on the diet recommended by my naturopath and trying to go 100% organic this time. I'm probably going to switch doctors, too. He has horrible bedside manner (I had to research almost everything on HPV on my own, and he dismissed anything that diet could do to help). When he told me about my latest pap results, he asked me if I was past childbearing years because if I was, they'd do LEEP. I practically cried into the phone: "I already had LEEP - and I am of child bearing age. Why did you do that to me?" I admit that I didn't look enough into LEEP beforehand and am only now realizing the risk of damage it could have done/did to my cervix. I think he seems too surgery bent if he was going to recommend LEEP again for low grade (he apologized, said he didn't have my chart in front of me, and then said that treatment of this should not affect my fertility). My boyfriend and I are starting to talk about when we want to get married and have children. Part of my anxiety is that if I can't beat this thing, I won't have children and will ruin our plans and our lives. He is very supportive of me, and of what I'm doing to try to clear this BTW. After my diagnosis, he was shocked but didn't get mad at me after we discussed what was going on. I feel blessed to have him.
So I guess my questions are: Has anyone worked with a naturopath to help boost the immune system to beat this? Can diet really help? Am I doomed to not have children? Can I really beat this thing without having to undergo LEEP again? Is there any place I can go for a good GYN doctor recommendation? I'm not sure if I should be looking for a GYN oncologist at this point.
I know that it's impossible to answer these questions without knowing everything, but I just feel so lost after getting back an abornormal pap four and a half months post LEEP.
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