Thanks for stopping by and it's good to chat with you again, but I'm sorry to hear things are still hard to deal with.
I think this emotional side of HPV is not talked about enough. Clinics often think they've done enough by treating the warts or cervical cell changes that occur. Studies have shown time and time again that the emotional fallout is, not uncommonly, much harder to take than any medical implications.
It's also not uncommon for abnormal Paps to become normal again, and often this happens even without treatment. The immune response usually clears HPV over time (typically within 24 months) but it still leaves a lot of questions unanswered.
Almost everyone who has sex will get one or more HPV infections; in fact, it's uncommon for a sexually active adult to NOT have the virus. It's been described as the "common cold" of sex. Most people just never know it's there.
I'm glad you posted, and I think it's good for others to read your comments, because almost everyone is feeling something similar. Let me ask you a favor: would you mind if we run this thread in the next issue of HPV News? I think our readers should hear your perspective. No problem if you'd rather not...just let me know!