I will eventually get to my questions but want to share some background info first. The good part...I am happily married and been monogamous for about 18 years and have the most wonderful wife and daughter. Although my wife and I have not had actual intercourse for a few years, we are otherwise intimate (as she had gone through menopause and intercourse had become just too painful). Hormones are not an option.
The bad part. I have, over the years, seen numerous doctors (17 or more) and none have said that what they see is anything other than Ã¢â‚¬ËœnormalÃ¢â‚¬â„¢ skin bumps. Some doctors were family doctors and others were dermatologists, some were doctors at the County Health Clinic and one in particular was the Director of the HPV Clinic at the County Health Dept. - whom IÃ¢â‚¬â„¢ve seen twice along with her colleague. She had said to me, that she has seen just about everything there is to see and neither time did she feel that what I am seeing are warts. Virtually each doctor has told me that everything is normal. One doctor put an acidic wash on the area and another used a special type of light and a magnifying glass, all inspections were visual. Another doctor kind of Ã¢â‚¬Å“feltÃ¢â‚¬Â the area and said that, if they are warts, can sometimes be detected by touch. Also, my wife has regular Pap tests and none have ever resulted in an abnormality.
All that said, I still cannot shake the feeling that the Ã¢â‚¬Å“wrinkledÃ¢â‚¬Â or bumpy skin, around the under side of my foreskin, are warts. The emotional toll and stress are consuming me. Every day is a fight with shame and stress, and I need a sleep aid to get through the night. I am otherwise exceptionally healthy, as I have a great diet and I am an endurance athlete. Now, my questions.
First, is it possible to have an area with warts remain then same for many years? Second, if they are indeed warts, wouldnÃ¢â‚¬â„¢t they have grown in size or spread (changed in some way)? Third, the area in question seems to only be along the Ã¢â‚¬Å“lineÃ¢â‚¬Â of the circumcision, could warts naturally follow that Ã¢â‚¬ËœlineÃ¢â‚¬â„¢? Fourth, should I try and accept the numerous diagnosis and try and put this behind me? This is difficult to do, as every time I go to the bathroom I see this Ã¢â‚¬ËœwrinkledÃ¢â‚¬â„¢ area. For most people, I would assume, about 20 diagnosis would just about cinch it. Fifth, if they would be warts, what impact would it have for my wife? Lastly, am I just being OCD over the issue?
I try and tell myself that Ã¢â‚¬â€œ even if they are warts, there is no dramatic health threat to my wife. As I have seen from ASHAÃ¢â‚¬â„¢s site, the type of HPV that causes warts are different than varieties that may lead to cervical cancer. This really doesnÃ¢â‚¬â„¢t help emotionally though. I am really looking to ease my anxiety and worry. Many thanks for this wonderful forum!